Anne's Journal

After seeing a nutritionist this week, I've started thinking about when and what I eat a lot more. I kindof made it sound like I eat a small dinner and sometimes a something really small earlier in the day. So her recommendation was to sit down and eat two meals a day.

For me there is a huge difference between "committing" to a meal and just snacking on low-cal food when I get hungry. Like it's perfectly acceptable to eat low-cal foods anytime, but meals are a no-no. But my meals are usually lower in calories than what I'd eat if I didn't allow myself a meal.

So why can't I actually sit down and eat a meal? Mentally, I think it's just too big of a committment for me to eating. And this two meals a day plan really isn't curing anything - in fact I think it makes things worse in a way. I don't think she understands how bad I am, she must think I'm just a bit messed up about food and this will help it. But if she wants me to eat two meals a day, I'll eat two meals a day, but that means less calories and me displaying a more controling behavior over my food.

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